A piece of me

How far has God brought you?........ Have you ever stopped to consider the journey.... considered just how far he has carried you?.. What he's carried you through and continues to carry you towards....and the fact that he will take you all the way..... There's mountains that I've had to climb, and just when i thought I'd reached my top in life..Succeeded in my ultimate journey to my victory, life's pitfalls became a stumbling block in my path..just when i thought i had endured all i could , just when i said to my self.. "enough... i cant take it anymore!!!.. this is just to much"Shaking my head... hands trembling ...catching the tears as my sorrows seeped out into a world that did not care... care to love me... love me the way i craved to be loved, desired to be accepted, wanted my needs to be fulfilled, searching for an answer that would never come... why?.. Because I was searching outside my self... if only I had listened to myself, listen to that voice speaking life inside of me, instead of searching for myself in the reflection of anything and almost everyone that stroked a sense of comfort into my life ... a comfort that only lasted for but a brief moment .... a temporary fix for a illusion of what i thought was of necessity's for my life, my needs... my wants. only to inevitably... still find my self searching... dreaming... needing ... and ultimately feeling a sense of failure.. bringing me once again to my knees. .. then again.....as always... something deep inside collaborates together and i find myself pushing myself back to a standing point.. head lifted high, tears in my eyes and ultimatly continuing to press forward.. step by step.., I've had days when only rain came down in my life pouring situation and circumstance like a thunderstorm in my lifeline.... days when i thought no sunshine or break in my stormy weather would ever come to pass. When i have reached my breaking point and threw my hands up and said "Lord i just cant do this!" Why? It's just to much, i can't handle this, my heart cant take no more ..I need your help!!.. "i need your help just to get from here to there..." then I know it was in those times my father just like a parent to there child reached down and grabbed those hands and helped lift me back up off my knees and onto my feet.. and gave me windows of opportunity to take a new direction.(I Cor 10:13) Silently continuously pushing me towards my appointed calling in life, as the holy spirit festered deep within me silently guiding me without... at first... my knowledge of it.... it was at those weak minded moments and failing spiritual times in my life that God carried me when i had not the strength to carry myself. appointing others unknowingly to step into my lifeline.. to assist in pushing me forward to my finish line... Push me closer to my appointed destiny to shine for his glory....Not realizing at first.. how there presence in my lifeline.. no matter how briefly they attended to it.. would impact me... and unknowingly... help instill a streangth that I would need to continue to my next task in life.. and continue on towards my calling as they stepped there way out ...and continued on there own journey...Trials that came into your life to really... in the end just make you stronger.....Ever came to a point that your tired.... just tired of crying?.... slowing dying.. striving to survive.. day in.. day out.. mentally ... emotionally....I believe everyone has moments of battle within... when they just cant handle the situation and felt like there backed up against a wall... stuck in a dead end.with no turnabout.. with know lead way for escape.. and the only way out... is up.... the irony of heaven. and the Sun... to see it you have to look up.. and the only thing that is always shining on you is the sun.. The world can not flourish with out the sun it is essential for lively hood, for growth , for our progress, our development as a species. without it there would be death to a civilization.. It is absolutely essential and of complete necessity. and then the Son, he is always shining over us... the light in our darkness... the essential nourishment for our growth as an individual to be productive, to progress, to developed his children for a greater purpose..because we are absolutely essential and every one individually of great importance... hmmmm?

i know he brought me this far and he's going to take me all the way....... God is so miraculous and in the same i think he has the best sense of humor.. because no matter the situation at hand when you stop listening to everything.. to everyone.. and take heed and listen to him.. you stop.. you pause.. and think to yourself?? Wow.. why didn't I see that.. it was right there in front of me... Why did I do that.. I should of known better... how silly of me.. things weren't as bad as i thought .. i still have a way of escape out of this situation.. I still have an opportunity to elevate myself from the situation .. and sometimes if you really listen .. you can hear that little voice say... its going to be OK........and once again hope presses you forward and faith motivates your every step... and when you look back to recall a situation ....not to relive it.. you think to yourself... again... wow.. had i not went threw that... i wouldn't be where i am now.... Nothing ... I repeat nothing ... in your life.. others lives... or my life...is accidental... Everything is of purpose and pulled together to form glory for his kingdom.. the word clearly states that he knew you before you were formed... before your first breath into this life. (Jeremiah 1:5).. To grow you have got to give.. so just for today ?... I give this little piece of me to you......