God’s word is “ Sharper than any two-edged sword” Hebrews 4:12)

This past week I have had the opportunity to look inward and recognize with clarity the root of seeds flourishing in my spirit. seeds bearing fruit that do not profit me. Seeds that were planted to create discord and discouragement. I found myself struggling with emotions I was unable to contain... trying to control?.. yes!...contain ... not in the slightest... what individual in there natural state of mind does not try to control there emotions... especially when they are determined to seep out threw tears .. trying to cleans the body of unwanted saddness. Though we should not walk or be lead by emotions .. sometimes we do.......we are created imperfect.... the key is to recognize this and turn to God for direction ....and discernment...... to provide clarity.....creating understanding.... cleansing...promoting healing.... extending to progress.... and proceeding..... towards growth...by obtaining knowledge..... only to excel. i couldn't have found or came to understanding anything i have with out fervent prayer and seeking god on my face.
It is very easy to... just to keep it simple.. tell someone exactly how you are feeling.. thinking... reacting.... to be quick to respond to a comment that was piercing and meant to discourage ... hurt.. humiliate.... and sometimes even mock you... It is so hard sometimes to do what Christ has commanded us and forgive.“If you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses” (Mark 11:25) Sometimes its even harder when you know the person is someone who proclaims to walk with God in public but behind closed doors allows Satan to attack you threw them... and the hardest part is ... identifying that to be the root .. and that it is indeed not the individual.... but that they have unfortunately succeeded in allowing the enemy to use them as such a tool... that's why it is very important to stay armored up in gods word......so that when the enemy attacks....... you are prepared by having the word of god in your heart.. And for the individual knowingly not taken heed to Gods laws and speaking lies and creating discord they too shall fall under gods wrath.... ex specially those having sworn to uphold Gods law or ......................... a least proclaiming to (Leviticus 5:4).
A little piece of me...... i recently shared that I was shaken by an event unexpected... and threw Gods Grace,... his mercy.... his love..... i still am encourage to move forward..... to find healing in knowing the greater good that will abound from what at first I thought to be a trial .....to be tragedy....
I have had a individual that has stepped into my inner circle unwelcome...uninvited....uninvited by me...proclaiming to walk with God..i say this not to judge but because of the fruit being brought forth by this individuals deeds.. so sour... and not sweet or pleasing to taste.... trying to be the bigger person sometimes can make you wary........make your tired... straight up make you irritated... it is so easy to just give in and really give somebody a piece of your of mind... but its more work to hold your tongue and not.......so with that being said.... Prayer works my people... man.... the situation I'm facing at this moment ... I know God is good......and my relationship with him is so evident .. I'm falling in love with it.... i found myself for the first time able not to strike back at an individuals statements negatively but with Gods words as constructive correction..... that was not me but god threw me... and i found peace replacing the anger that was stirring within...
Have you ever ran into Christan's proclaiming to be Christ like in public but behind closed doors the walk as UN-Christian's.. they remind me of white washed walls..(Matthew 23:27) walls that look good on the outside but are empty on the inside.. Speaking and using god as if he was waterfall on there lips... throwing there words out there to take a position that they are mighty in there walk with God and your walk is nothing but pebbles in sand in comparison.. But the quiet....... the meek?... those that seek God on there face and stay in there closets.... they are those that when facing challenges, the word of God will flow profusely and without discord or confusion but constructively. Trust and believe......... i know this was not me.... but God threw me...so attached you will find a letter i addressed to someone today. Don't want to keep this to myself.... so ???????? I'm gonna give it away..

Dear Ms.X,
Responding to your criticism of sowing seeds of discord and all the emails that you are reading that I have not responded to, for they were not for you .. Rather than let my flesh and my emotions speak I have sought God and this is what I will say only once.

” If I were to try to read, much less answer, all the attacks made on me, this shop might as well be closed for other business. I do the very best I know how- the very best I can: and I mean to keep doing so until the end. If the end brings me out all right, what’s said against me won’t amount to anything. If the end brings me wrong, ten angels swearing I was right would make no difference- Abraham Lincoln)

and may I add…

“Having your conduct honorable among the Gentiles, that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may, by your good works which they observe, glorify God” (1 Peter 2:12) Criticism can consume our lives to the point of emotional paralysis, or we can set our hearts to serve God on display. Doing that? We don’t need to answer our critics with our words- our lives will say all that is needed. Ms. X, I know you’re familiar with the parable of the sower. People who hear the Word and receive it joyfully are like seed sown on stony places: they spring up quickly but endure only a short time because they have no roots (Matt. 13:6, 20-21) Roots are not all that glamorous, but they are the source of our strength. If our roots go deep in the knowledge of God (Jere. 9:24) and our lives are hidden in Christ (Col 3:3), we’ll be strong, resistant to blight, and more likely to survive the storms of adversity. But that does not mean that it will not pain us in the process... Hurt is real. The most powerful Testimony is a Godly life..

Paul’s last recorded words dealt not with what he had done in life and ministry but rather with how he viewed people. What makes it more significant is that some of those words were about people who had disappointed him ...”At my first defense no one stood with me, but all forsook me. May it not be charged against them”(2 Tim 4:16) His last words were those of compassion and kindness instead of harshness and retaliation. Will your last words show the grace of Christ or the bitterness of a wounded heart? The answer should impact the words we use today.. What words will be your legacy? Why is it when you hear or read about someone who is suffering, you are more interested in the details of what, why, when, and where than you are about how you can help. Read (John 9:1-12) Jesus revealed they were dreadfully out of step with there Masters Heart. In fact, lurking beneath there question was a judgmental spirit- a desire to know who to blame- as if that would make anyone feel better! Feeling curious about somebody’s problem? Shift into Jesus mode and move past the point of curiosity to his or her point of need. Reach out and touch someone’s pain. Show the compassionate love of Jesus in action.. Amongst gods commands to his people is “you shall not bear false witness against your neighbor”(Ex. 20:16) gossip could also be included in the command because it violates the law of love toward our neighbor. Proverbs uses strong language to describe this use of our words. “It’s like “a club, a sword, and a sharp arrow” against others (25:18)

When I feel wrong, I can contrive a hundred reasons against forgiveness. “He needs to learn a lesson’”” she said that to be spiteful and sow discouragement” “I let her stew for awhile; It’ll do her good.” “It is not up to Holly to make the first move.” When I finally soften to a point of granting forgiveness, sought God through prayer, it seems a leap from hard logic to mushy sentiment. One factor that motivates me to forgive is that as a Christian I am commanded to. As the child of the father who forgives. Jesus said, “If you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses” (Mark 11:25)

HE WHO CANNOT FORGIVE OTHERS BURNS THE BRIDGE OVER WHICH HE HIMSELF MUST PASS-Herbert

The discerning believer understands his own heart and takes steps to deal with conflict diplomatically Proverbs 17:27 tells us: “He who has knowledge spares his words.” This means keeping in check a multitude of opinions that could ignite further anger in others. Someone who displays wisdom will think before speaking, and then will share only insights likely to be helpful. Have you ever read the book THE EAST OF EDEN? It illustrates the conflict of jealousy and revenge in the story of Cain and Able. Cain burned with Anger(Gen 4:1-6) Cain’s anger and jealously if not brought under control, would eat him up and spill out in destructive behavior. But if you bring your anger to the lord and ask for his help, in his strength you will have victory.. The book shares how an angry heart burning with revenge does not have to act a certain way. There’s always a choice….. That’s the free will you had expressed earlier in one of your earlier responses.. This marriage that you continuously speak of being brought back is of Gods will that its not of his will for it to be apart? You spoke of everyone having there own will… I do know that that what god has joined together let no man put asunder. It was your will that filed for Divorce.. Not Gods will.. Everything that has played out is a ramification of everyone being outside of the will of God. Including me. Sometimes getting real is hard to face. Even had to do.. Seems I have noticed that some Christians act decidedly UN-Christian while trying to prove how Godly they are….. Choosing to protect personal preference rather than demonstrate the love of Jesus to a watching world.. .. In his love, we don’t react disdainfully toward others simply because we don’t agree. Jesus said, “By this all will know that you are my disciples, if you love for one another”(John 13:35) Do others see the love of Jesus in you when they see your behavior?( 1 John 4:21). “ The Lord does not see as man sees; for men looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart” (1 Samuel 16:1-7) God’s word is “ Sharper than any two-edged sword” Hebrews 4:12) piercing all the way through the external stuff of our lives, all the way down to our thoughts, intentions, and REAL MOTIVES……………

Over all I think God allowed me to go threw this because he wanted me to see what happens when Holly puts herself in charge. What we think, feel is not necessarily the best that GOD desires for us. Isaiah 55:8 the Lord said my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways”…. When you have time on your hands put them together in Prayer.. Ephesians 5:15-16

Thank you